So I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and trying to
figure out what it is exactly that I want. I know I what the D/s in my life, I’d
love to find the right Dom for me, it’s just not happening right now. I want to
be a part of the community, but that is very difficult to do when you don’t
trust the people in the community.
Trust is such a huge factor in this lifestyle and when that
trust is broken, it’s hard to get back. I’ve learned some things and there’s
just no going back from that.
So I’ve decided not to go back to the group that I started
my journey with. Although I’m still friends with several of the group members,
I just can’t go back when I don’t trust the people there. I would like to, as I
really do miss being active in the group, but not at the expense that I feel I’d
have to pay. I’d have to pretend that I didn’t know things every time that the
group got together and I just don’t want to do that.
Back to the drawing board I go! I know that the right group
and Dom are out there, I will just have to be patient. And those that know me
the best know that patience isn’t necessarily one of my better virtues!
Onward to the next stop in my life, wish me luck!
